Saturday, March 10, 2007
Look what I got in the mail
Another birthday gift arrived in the mail yesterday. Its a little artist sketchbook that came with 6 colored pencils and sketchpad, plus it is in my favorite color of course. The suede cover really feels nice. Its from my friend Julie in Napa. Thanks girlfriend. Isn't it the cutest thing.
I spent the afternoon with my friend Ginger. We watched the Secret and kept talking about the concept all afternoon. I got a lot of insights on my life that she could see and I couldn't. It was amazing. It appears that since my childhood I have been seeking love by having people take care of me and I believe they always fall short. This can be financially, physically and emotionally. I keep creating situations to give them another chance. They always fail. The only person who can take care of me is me. Duh, its seems silly when you type it out. This goes back to my childhood where that is what I was taught. So then the thought becomes if love isn't that people take care of you just what is it for me. It is as though you then need to redefine your whole existence. I think I have a lot of work to do on this issue. Of course realizing a problem is the first step in fixing it.
It is the day for check in. Quite a few insights this week. I did morning pages every day. Some days the words just flowed out of me and others they were a struggle. I took an artist date at a jewelry/bead store called Pandora's Baubles and beads. Its a wonderful store and I had a great time. I am not really doing a formal walk since my sciatica is preventing that. I try to do a meditation in place of it.
I wrote a note to one of my supporters, met with another to discuss my projects and got some good feedback. I have been having issues with my scanner which is holding up work on my story of my grandparents and I have been offered a friends scanner so that should speed that up a bit.
I have read so many books on authors lives that I just skipped that part. Other questions that related to avoiding projects I decided I could devote 1 hour a day to work on the Angel book. This is the first book I got the inclination to write. I have been avoiding that too long. I am going to do a collage and or a vision board on the book to get me going in the right direction.
Quote of the Day: We must be willing to get rid of the life we planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us. - Joseph Campbell