I just love how a change in thoughts can change ones life. Last night after an incredible episode of Heroes I tried to weave after advancing the warp I lost the shed again. I really do not know what is going on with this loom. I had planned on weaving all day but have not even tackled it at all.
I have been dealing with this acid reflux thing. I definetly have seen a decline in all the burping but my stomach hurts most of the time. Recommendations were to eat small meals, to stay away from spicy foods. I think I need to go really low fat too. Also my feet are swelling up, I am not drinking enough water since I am too sick to my stomach to want to eat or drink. Its sort of a vicious cycle. I leave for this trip tomorrow and I don't even want to get out of bed. Well that was last night, this morning when I woke up things were the same if not worse and thats when despondancy seems to set in for me. I felt so crappy I just want to crawl in a hole and never come out again.
It is at this point that I get on the computer and I see a note by LisaFroggy and oh that changed everything. Thanks Lisa for posting about the commentary on the Secret Video. I went to watch it right away, at first I could not find it, but it is in the settings section. It was a conversation with Rhonda Byrne and another producer. Its like one long interview. It took me back and made me realize what I have been doing to myself. If I don't start seeing myself as healthy I never will be. I don't know why I need to be constantly reminded of this but I do. I only listened to about half of the commentary and everything changed for me. I now know for certain that the trip is really going to be one of healing for me on several levels. I know when I get back I will discover whats wrong with the loom and be able to finish the project on time. I have let go of all those expectations and now I can enjoy the day, get ready for my trip and go and have a fantastic time. Isn't it wonderful!
Now the good news, you know I was disappointed at not getting into the Writers Spa and then there were a couple other offerings I was interested in but I couldn't make up my mind. I remember saying to myself why can't there be a workshop closer. I had decided to just wait and see. Well one did come to my attention but it has nothing to do with writing, but it does have a lot to do with Art. I really want to go to this one. Its held in Utah which is really close for me, just a 4 hour drive. Its an art retreat called the Artnest. Its held in June and the following artists will each teach a one day class. Misty Mawn teaches Spontaneous Art. Sally Jean Alexander teaches a Gothic pendant and Kristin Steiner teaches I am a woman who(a fabric book). To say that I am just a little excited about meeting and taking a class from Misty Mawn would be an understatement. Then I looked at her class list and thought, oh wow this is going to be serious I wonder if I am up to this challenge. Then I thought you have to jump out of the box and explore, this is what you want. So feel the fear and do it anyways. So yes I am planning on going. As soon as they send a registration form my check will be in the mail.
Quote of the Day:"My philosophy is that not only are you responsible for your life, but doing the best at this moment puts you in the best place for the next moment." -Oprah Winfrey